Thursday, January 10, 2013

My Story 2010

(Many of you have asked about my journey with vaccines and why I am so passionate about spreading awareness and truth. Here is the story behind the story that I wrote back in 2010. I hope this will help explain why I do and say the things I do! Thanks for reading.) 

This is my story.

About Me
I like to think of myself as a simple, everyday mom. I don’t like to sew. I’m not a ‘Martha-Stewart- kinda woman (although sometimes wish I were). Health for me and my family is important. We have instinctively stayed away from processed and preservative filled foods (thank you Trader Joe’s and Whole Foods). I enjoy cleaning the house and I stay pretty busy everyday with the normal mommy duties.

Vaccine History
My “vaccine-awareness” story (for lack of a better phrase) began in 2010 shortly after the birth of our third child, Phoebe. Up until this time I vaccinated both my children and always stayed on top of the vaccine schedule through wellness visits, etc. They gave me a very structured schedule to follow and so I did. If I missed a visit, the pediatrician would always make a reminder call and I would be in next week. I never thought about the process – this is simply what you do when you have kids, right?

I never thought to question these visits. Sure it broke my heart every time my children received a shot. I cried at all of Hannah’s because she was my first. With Christopher, I was stronger because I had been through it with Hannah and I knew what to expect. Plus this was ‘for their health.’ It’s required and who was I to question. I mean, why would I? The doctor said it’s safe and they have to have the best interest of my children in mind. That’s what I would tell myself. So I vaccinated them completely. They received everything they needed to enter school and so on. (sigh)

My Crisis
Then Phoebe came along. There is something that I will say about this child: Phoebe is very special! She has been the most ‘perfect baby’ I could have ever hoped for or imagined. From the moment I held her in the hospital, there was something so sweet and almost magical about her. She held her head up for the first 3 hours in the hospital, looking all around. She would already be looking into my face and apparently studying it. She was very aware and very alert. She ate well and slept beautifully. Pacifying her was the easiest thing in the world. Upon leaving the hospital, Phoebe received her Hepatitis B vaccine because – as I was told – that’s just what we need to do before leaving the hospital.
Fast forward two months and it was now time for her first ‘wellness’ visit and thus her first set of vaccines. Up to this point, Phoebe had never cried except for when she was overly tired or hungry. It was really strange how utterly content she was. Sometimes, when she was hungry, I would just let her cry for a few minutes because it was such a sweet soft cry and I hardly ever heard it. Sounds crazy I’m sure, but I promise it’s true.

So I took Phoebe in for her doctor’s visit. Everything was perfect on her: weight, height, etc. At the end of the visit, the nurse came back in to administer the vaccinations. She administered the shots and yes, Phoebe cried, which was what I had expected. I immediately picked her up and held her in my arms. I consoled her, nursed her and comforted her best I could. She cried most of the way home but that was very typical. I knew this from my other children. I thought nothing of it. When I got home though things changed and this is where it all began for me.

Phoebe began crying in a way I had never heard her. It wasn’t even just a cry, it was a wail. She would straighten her legs and scream at the top of her lungs. It was like nothing I had ever heard before, from either of my other children. Her eyes were huge and her face was bloodshot red. Immediately, my God- given ‘mother’s instinct’ told me something was very wrong. Now, if you are a mother, you know what I’m talking about. It is that undeniable, gut-wrenching feeling in the middle of your being that you can not ignore, even if you tried. My heart flipped upside down and immediately I started asking, “What have I done?”

Phoebe cried, non-stop for four hours. I walked around my house holding my precious baby girl wondering what in the hell was happening to her. Clearly something had happened. It was like she was being burned and tormented. I know how over the top that sounds but that is the best description I can offer. She was trapped in her own little body and I had no way of helping her. When I would look at her face, she would look me in the eyes and scream. It was as if she was saying, “Mommy, make it stop.” I will never forget these hours in which I was convinced I had lost my little girl. Something was happening to her and I could not make it stop. I could not comfort her. I could not bring her peace. It was beyond my control. Her little body was exhausted from crying, her head would hang low even as she was wailing with all her strength. Then, every few minutes, her legs would shoot straight out stiff and the wailing would begin again. My world had stopped.
The screaming continued into the night and the next day. I would say she cried uncontrollably for twenty-four hours straight. My sweet precious little angel... what had happened? Immediately I knew this was a result from the vaccines. It didn’t take a rocket scientist to figure that out.

My Journey
For the next two weeks, my heart was in turmoil. I could not believe what I witnessed and was scared to death for her four month wellness visit for more of the same vaccines. My heart went into mayhem and I could not sleep. I asked my husband to be praying for Phoebe and for me.
During these next few weeks I knew I needed to research and study these vaccines. I didn’t know where to start. I had no one I could turn to because no one really talks about these things. So I prayed. I asked the Lord, “Help me, give me wisdom on how to handle this whole thing. I don’t know where to turn.”

Some may say it’s a coincidence, but I know my prayer was answered. Anyway, whatever your beliefs are here, the timing for me could not have been more perfect. I would like to call it a “Divine Intervention”. I reconnected with a childhood friend through an e-mail, just saying hello. She was on my heart, so I emailed her. She e-mailed me right back and shared a little of her life story with me. She shared with me that she was in the middle of writing a book on vaccine awareness. Needless to say, I was floored.
With her help and much prayer, I was able to surround myself with the recourses I needed to study and understand the vaccine/medical and pharmaceutical industries from both sides and not just what I learned from my pediatrician. Not just from the literature they gave me but from other sources as well.

I learned about the history of vaccinations and long term damage and side-effects they are causing. I learned about what they do to the child’s developing mind and body. Most importantly, I heard scores of personal testimonies of real parents who watched their children disappear before their eyes after receiving a vaccine. I had no idea these sources existed. I had never had a reason to look. The information I obtained, the studies I read and facts that I learned about vaccines were shocking to me. Shocking, and appalling.

In the time between Phoebe’s two and four month ‘wellness’ visit, when my heart was in complete disarray, I made a commitment to my husband that I needed to learn as much as I can before we put another needle in the arm of any of our children. I asked him to trust me with what I was learning and assured him that this would help us to make the best decision for our family. I, my husband and several friends earnestly prayed over this decision and have come to the conclusion, after hours of research that we will no longer vaccinate our children.

I believe with all my heart that Phoebe would be damaged somehow if I continued down this road. She had a reaction that no doctor can tell me is normal. And if they did, shame on them. The sad thing is that, from what I learned, Phoebe’s reaction was nothing compared to what some other parents have gone through. I say that with a broken heart for those families. The stories I have heard and read are nothing short of heartrending.

This is what awakened me to the dangers of vaccines: a close call with my own child. I understand every parent needs to make their own decision regarding their children’s health. I would never tell someone not to vaccinate. I would simply ask you to study both sides. Read personal testimonies. Look at studies. Ignorance is not bliss when it comes to the health of our children. Understand that there truly are great risks that go along with vaccinations.

I am so thankful and grateful because God’s grace is sufficient. So far, none of my children have any lasting side-effects from vaccination (that I know about). However, if I could do it all over again, knowing what I know now, I would have chosen not to vaccinate.

There is also a spiritual side to my story. I would be willing to share that with you too if you would ever want to discuss it. Simply put, I believe that we are fearfully and wonderfully made by our Creator. He has given us an immune system and (as I have found) the scores of vaccinations that we give our children goes much further in compromising this immune system than it does in aiding it. I search the Scriptures in vain to find any place where God tells his people to inject (or ingest) potions to assure that their children will be healthy. Needless to say, as a Christian I was appalled to learn that aborted fetus tissue is actually an ingredient the pharmaceutical companies currently use in their many of the vaccinations. Needless to say, this revealed to me the spirit behind much of what the world terms ‘wellness plans.’

So basically, in a nut shell, this is my story. Many have asked to know it and what drives my passion for posting on Facebook. My prayer is that every time I post something, someone would read it and say, “Hum, what is this all about? Perhaps I need to know more before I make another choice regarding my child and these vaccinations.” That’s all. I post things with a heart of love and hopefulness that a new generation of moms would look more deeply into what I have found to be, in so many cases, a very sinister scheme to make profits from pumping our children with poison.

Thank you for reading this and taking the time to see why my beliefs are so passionate and strong about this. I truly respect your point of view if it is different than mine. I understand we may all not see things the same way. I guess my one prayer is: please just be informed. There are so many layers to this that need to be pealed away and looked at closely. The vaccine industry is so different than it looks like on the surface and I believe we owe it to our children to be absolutely educated in this area so we can make the best, healthiest decisions for their lives.

Because He Lives,
Robin ♥

PS: The screaming I was explaining to you about with Phoebe those first 24 hours... it is called the "encephalitic cry". It means the brain is swollen and inflamed. It's listed as a warning on the vaccine package insert. It's listed as a warning, because of the "seriousness or frequency of reporting". My precious, beautiful, healthy little girl...her brain swollen and inflamed. Really? Why? ...Because I didn’t know. But now I do.

A Few Facts
  • In 1992, 1 in 10,000 diagnosed with Autism. Today 1 in (less than!) 67. 
  • In 1983 children received 10 different vaccines. Today 63. 
  • Since 1950 cancers and diseases have risen 900%. 
  • “The United States has one of the worst infant mortality rates of industrialized nations. In fact, as new vaccines are added to the recommended vaccine schedule, the US infant mortality rate worsens. For example: in 1960 (before mass vaccines) the US had one of the best infant mortality rates in the world. By 1998, the US dropped to 28th place. By 2006, this vaccine crazed nation fell to 42nd place, worse than Cuba but ahead of Croatia.” ~ Dr. Neil Z Miller 
  • The US Government pays out to Planned Parenthood millions of dollars a YEAR for their persevered aborted fetal tissue in order to create vaccines to inject into our precious newborn babies. (Yes you read that correct) 
  • "In the Rimavexmeasles vaccine we found various chicken viruses. In polio vaccine, we found acanthomeba which is a so called “brain-eating” ameba. Simian cytomegatovias in the polio vaccine, simian foamy in the rotavirus vaccine, bird cancer viruses in the MMR vaccine.various organisms in the anthrax vaccine, dangerous enzyme inhibitors in several vaccines. Duck, dog and rabbit viruses in the rubella vaccine. Avian leucosis virus in the flu vaccine, postivirus in the MMR vaccine... Also, most don't know that some polio vaccines, adenovirus vaccines, rubella, Hepatitis A measles vaccines etc. have been made with aborted human fetal tissue." Dr. Mark 

Randall (pseudonym) former NIH researcher and vaccine developer for major pharmaceuticals, interviewed by investigative journalist John
• Homefirst Health Services in Chicago has 35,000 unvaccinated children and not a single case of autism.
Great Books1
  • “Vaccine Safety Manual: For Concerned Families and Health Practitioners” by Neil Z Miller 
  • “The Sanctity of Human Blood, Vaccination is Not Immunization” By Tim O’Shea 
  • “How To Raise a Healthy Child, In Spite of Your Doctor” Dr. Robert Mendelsohn Other Great Sources (On Google or Facebook) 
    • Dr. Tenpenny on Vaccines 
    • National Vaccines Information Center 
    • Thinktwice Global Vaccine Institute 

1 Please read them. They are full of medical proof that vaccines are unsafe and harmful to our bodies! And so much more!


  1. This is so powerful, Robin. I have always worried about vaccines especially since when I had the cholera one for moving to Philippines and got cholera and was soooo sick. When my grandchildren went in for vaccines I always prayed. Scary.

    1. Thank you Renee! I always get very nervous about sharing my story because I know it is such a personal battle for many. I mean, what mother wants to believe for a second that she has allowed or approved something that ultimately caused her child harm. However, I believe wholeheartedly that we have a huge issue on our hands with the health of children today. I believe 90% of it steams from over-vaccination and the inability to be able to understand that- what we have been told "is necessary, safe and effective" is actually completely false. It's quite the opposite and medical science proves that. I believe that we as a society have been brainwashed and lied to. Big Pharma is a multi-BILLION dollar industry. They KNOW what they are doing. To me it's sickening. It's wrong. I know what happened to my daughter was very very wrong. I am determined to share my story and research with anyone who is willing to read it. Thanks for your support. It means a lot to me! Bless you my friend. xox

  2. Hi Robin, i'd be interested in knowing your thoughts on 3rd world countries and vaccinations. Also, we have yet to get flu shots, more or less because i have forgotten about them but am a little conflicted as i do believe that not everyone responds the same and am always a little fearful of the side affects. Thanks and bless you and your family. :-) Heather English

    1. Hi Heather! Yes, I absolutely have thoughts and opinions on 3rd world countries and vaccinations. ALthough Im not exactly sure what your wondering... I can literally write for days on this. Maybe we can chat one day. :) Also, the flu vaccine is one of the most toxic and harmful vaccines you could get. The flu vaccine insert itself states in fine print that it has NOT been tested for safety and effectiveness. I can send you the link of the insert if you email me. Also, the side-effects are ENDLESS. You are SO much better off taking natural, healthy immune builders to help stay healthy during the flu season than an untested, harmful and completely toxic vaccine. (In my humble opinion.) I would love to chat with you further on this. Let's get together if you want! Im totally open to it!