Wednesday, November 30, 2011

New York Moment

"Thus says the LORD of hosts, 'Render true judgments,
show kindness and mercy to one another, do not oppress the widow,
the fatherless, the sojourner, or the poor,
and let none of you devise evil against another in your heart."
Zechariah 7: 9-10

Sometimes starting a post is the most difficult thing to do.

First off, I’m not a writer so nothing comes easy.
Second, I have so many thoughts and no clue how to articulate them.
Third, I’m my own worst enemy and think nothing I say makes sense.

However, I do believe I received a word from the Lord to “write it all down” in a journal or what-have-you, so this is it.

My blog.

My heart.

My life.

My story.

This month was B.U.S.Y.!

Southern California 8 days (pack and unpack)
New York 5 days (pack and unpack)
“Lord’s Land” 3 days (pack and unpack)

I think I did more laundry this month than anyone in the world.
I pack and unpacked more bags and suitcases than any traveling band.
And cleaned my house for the umpteenth time, its no wonder shortly after Thanksgiving and school starting back again… I forgot my name.
Mentally I shut down for 2 days and refused to do anything for anyone.
(Not really. I attempted to go on strike with my family but that clearly does not work.)

So here I am. A month later after my last post and I feel like so much has happened.

God is Good!
God is Perfect.
God is Holy!

I am excited to say that Chris and I are really starting to feel like we are getting a “vision” even though we still don’t know what ‘it’ is. Does that make sense?

It does to us.

God has been so, SO, S.O. faithful to us this past month.
I feel like we are learning how to LOVE. Not just each other, but OTHER people. I know in my own heart, God has begun showing me the need for His Truth to be shared to everyone. My heart to ‘want to’ witness is being enlarged and engaged by the Holy Spirit and it is SO COOL!

I love people.
I love the thought of loving people and sharing Jesus with them.

Which brings me back to the orphan, the widows, the brokenhearted, the less fortunate and the needy. My heart is cracking wide open. What does this mean? Not sure yet but we will soon.

I know He has a plan.
I know He is doing a work in both mine and Chris’s heart. There is no doubt that He is transforming our desires to want to serve Him.
And I don’t mean just on Sunday mornings or at a Wednesday night Bible study.
I mean:
sell out,
sold out,
lay it all down
serving Christ everyday!

This is where my hearts sits today.

I want Jesus!
I want HIS will for our lives.
I want Him to be glorified through my life.

I had a thought while we were in New York
I had a moment when I was looking around at all the big buildings, flashy lights and fantasy stores, I thought to myself,
“Well this is it.
This is what the world has to offer you.
At lease here in America.
This is THE New York!!!’
This is the happening place for all the movies, millionaires and stars.
guess what???

It’s all going to burn!!

These buildings will crumble.
The stores will disappear.
These lights will burn out.
Everything this world has to offer is represented in one way or another here in New York
and it’s all going to be destroyed.”

The Lord was speaking to me in this thought.
It was amazing to have that moment with Him.

He asked me…
“What will it be? All this ‘glamour’ of life, that I WILL destroy one day,
or Me,
that can never be destroyed?”

It was one of those moments that I will never forget.
I can still hear the cars passing by, horns honking, the smell of the air and the feeling of cold wind on my face. I memorized the moment.  

This life, we must choose.
What will it be?
What WILL it be?
God or man?

I want my life to be sold out for Him.

I want my heart on FIRE to share the gospel.
I need nothing but yet desire everything in Him.
Him only.

So this is my heart.

This is where I sit today.

"The LORD reigns; let the peoples tremble!
He sits enthroned upon the cherubim;
let the earth quake!
The LORD is great in Zion;
he is exalted over all the peoples.
Let them praise your great and awesome name!
Holy is he!"
Psalm 99:1-3

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